Â I’ve noticed a trend in both family and friends. Â The more you are honest about how you are feeling and discussing your ailments, the less people care about them. Â It’s almost a paradox – the people you love are supposed to help you through things like pain, sickness, etc. Â However, they can be easily overburdened by your chronic syndromes.
My stomach has been pretty wonky since I was 19. Â I started taking Pepcid when it first came out on the market and it helped for a while. Â It eventually stopped working and I had to make my way up to proton pump inhibitors. Â Nexium seems to be “the one” that just works. Â Unfortunately, my new employer/insurance doesn’t cover the purple pill. Â Protonix just came out with a generic but it’s not the best. Â So, the GERD and hiatal hernia have been ruining my life. Â Drinking hot tea helps calm it down but ultimately my weight (which is going down) and drinking soda are the primary factors.Â
I’m babbling. Â My point is, it’s a fine line you have to walk/balance on to keep your family from being numb. Â I think we too easily forget we can suck it up for a while, if we’re actively trying to prevent accessing migraine triggers, bad foods for our heads and stomachs, etc. Â Part of me says screw off, if you don’t like it then you can kiss my ass. Â The other part of me says that it’s hard enough for me going through it and I should use my external help wisely.
Part of the other issue that I’ve discussed before is both the migraines and GERD are internal things. Â A little red light doesn’t start blinking on your forehead to confirm you’re ill. Â (Although, I think sometimes we see blinking lights as an aura.) Â You know people, even your close friends, do think you’re either overreacting or acting in general if you get symptoms frequently.
Do I show the pain, or just mask it with a smile?